Her decisions were unwise
But she embraced the mentality
How bad could it be
What could go wrong
To let go of any prohibitions
And give into the impulses that she so carefully kept under wraps
They were always hidden there
Smooshed down and tied up
Thrown and locked into the far corner of her mind
Where on occasion she would crack open the door
And let some of them seep out
A breath to keep her satisfied
And relieve the pressure of the room from overflowing capacity
But this time
This time a taste opened up so much more
And she found herself standing outside the door for too long
Embracing the shadows that slowly caressed her.
They turned on her,
the very things that she was trying to prevent
The very things she had spent so much energy confining
Rushing out at her, invading the other aspects of her brain
Words and motor function were tainted
And she watched as her actions became controlled by her impulses